she's mad at me...

my god.. what have i've done?.. goodness.. yeah,, sheila's mad at me right now.. my fault din nmn kc.. ndi ko xa nsabihan kgb about dun sa site.. na wala na ung spot for her, napunta kc kay condes.. sinabihan kc ni ann si condes to do the action scripting.. geez, stupid tlg ako.. walang kwenta, walang silbi.. anu ba?.. pagkatapos ng lahat ng kabutihang ginawa sken ni sheila, ba't to pa nagawa ko sa kanya?.. feeling ko i betrayed her, pinaasa sa wala.. my god!.. nahihiya na kc ako sa kanya kya ndi ko kgd masabi.. i was thinking last night how could i fix this.. i mean, we could work all four together instead of three.. i'll give a share nalang to her from my share sna.. may cut parin nmn ako sa logo eh okay na un.. shocks, anu na mukha kong ihaharap sa kanya mamaya?.. potah ana!.. antanga tanga mo kc,, para sasabihin mo lang, ndi mo pa masabi.. just let her know!!.. hay.. ewan ko ba sken.. bsta naunahan nako ng hiya, ndi na'ko nakakapagsalita.. baket ba'ko gnito?.. waahhh, she doesn't deserved a treatment like that!.. patira na nga ako dito, ndi pa'ko nakakabayad, may utang pa'ko sa knya, ang kuryente, tubig, washing machine, lhat na.. waaaaahhh.. stupid ana tlg!!

but one thing i like about her is that she tells what she wants, what's inside her.. kung naiinis xa sa tao or anything,, hay, that's one thing i can't do easily.. mejo mdame akong segway eh.. becoz i can't directly say stuffs.. i need to think something that wouldn't hurt much.. pero sa nangyare, it hurts more.. waaaaaaahhh.. but i've learned (just now, after what happened) that there are things that i can't fix at all just to save something or someone.. some should let it as what it should be.. and i can't do something about it - just accept it and face it.. damnit ana!.. puro ka nlng i've learned i've learned, ndi mo namn sinasabuhay!.

hay.. sana lang, everything goes well after this..